Wednesday, April 17, 2019

The Day You Left Us


2556 Days

61,344 Hours

3,680,640 Minutes

That's a very long time
and yet
It seems like just yesterday!

That day I received a phone call from the Principal at your school,
she called to tell me you had been taken by ambulance to Lawrence & Memorial,
you were unconscious, and they had found you on the floor of your classroom.

My ears started to Buzz ...
I couldn't hear what she was saying anymore ...
I remember screaming in the phone "Is he dead"
I screamed again "I'm on my way".
I called for Morgan to come home immediately from her job which thankfully was literally right around the corner that day.

We drove to the hospital ...
Not knowing what we would find when we got there ...
I remember telling Morgan, I think he died.
Then when we walked in to the hospital they got the doctor to come and talk to us,

I'm so sorry to tell you that your husband had a massive heart attack and passed away, we were unable to revive him.

... and there's that buzzing in my ears again, it just wouldn't stop.
How does one go on from that point,
you just do, even when you don't want to, you just do.
It wasn't easy, I walked around waiting for someone to tell me it didn't really happen ...
but no one did.
Thank God for all the family and friends that helped to get both Morgan and I through your passing.
We didn't get through it unscathed,
there were tears
and anger
and yet
we carried on, because that's what you would have wanted us to do.

There are still hard moments and days when we think about you and miss you, I suppose that will never change.

You filled our lives with joy and love.
You changed our world for the better.
You will never be forgotten Brian.
Me and the Girl


  1. Hugs and prayers for loss my friend. I can't even imagine. I'm so glad I got to meet you all. It was a lovely, fun time.

    1. We had the best time that day ... meeting you was a highlight. It isn't often we make good friends over the internet and then actually meet them ... we got lucky. Thanks for your hugs and prayers, it's never easy to lose a loved one but I'm doing OK now, I just had never really documented that day and those feelings and thought that the anniversary of his passing was a good day to get them in writing.